The effect of marijuana on my writing

It stimulates thoughts and feelings that I wouldn’t otherwise have, and takes me deeper into myself than I could otherwise go. It makes the commonplace profound, and the profound intense. It also takes me to the edge of panic. Sometimes, it makes my hands shake and my fingers tremble across the keyboard. I sweat and shiver at once; sometimes, I cry. My monitor recedes into another dimension. I have left the outside world for an encounter with my essence.

Marijuana is changing me. It’s too strong, and I use it too much for this to be otherwise. My belief is that I’m becoming more at peace and that I’m going deeper with my writing, but drugs are notorious for their deceptiveness, and their effects are rarely permanent. It’s also true that I’ve known few, if any, people who became wiser or more insightful for using marijuana. However, the same can be said about the influence of art, music, nature, literature, heroism, and other laudatory influences. No good thing can propel a person beyond his potential.

7 comments:

Helen said...

Snow,
This is profound and definitely not commonplace ...

That corgi :) said...

So its a good thing right? If you didn't have it, you wouldn't feel so creative?

betty

The Blog Fodder said...

It is too strong...is this a result of selective plant breeding or?

PhilipH said...

You know how it affects you, therefore it's good for you and for your creativeness.

Sort of like: you hash, therefore you are... maybe?

Charles Gramlich said...

I used to get some of this feeling from booze, but it betrayed me in the end. Hard to trust anything these days. maybe it always was.

Snowbrush said...

"If you didn't have it, you wouldn't feel so creative?"

It's not creativity that I'm after, but insights that will lead to a deeper understanding, particularly of my own thoughts and actions, and marijuana helps greatly with that. Afterwards, I'm exhausted, but it was worth it.

Kert said...

It is good that you recognize and reflect of marijuana's effects on you. I'm not sure how much you take, but I am sure hoping that it is doing you more good than bad. Cheers!